Random Thought 3

Friends and Family:

Jesus! I must really love my friends and family members. When we "converse" we discuss stupid stuff. I'm not a phone person, and I don't like to talk about the same things over and over. It kills me when I have to sit through a conversation about a topic that was in discussion for weeks-let's move on already!

2 examples, 1st-on the way to In & Out Burger-I had to hear my father talk about my mother's oldest sister charging people $10 to participate in a potluck.....I know Janky and Ghetto. Why would I spend $10 to hang out in a park in 95 degree heat, hot and sticky, just to eat my own food. Hell, I can do that in the comfort of my own home, at least I have a pool and air condition. I sympathize with my mother; although she is out of the country, I have play wife and listen to this topic of discussion that has been in play for a week now. I say listen because I don't feel like participating anymore, contributing my opinion over and over again is like watching paint dry on a wall-it's dead.....not to my father. He has to replay the invitation over and over again. I feel like I can say exactly what he says because he's said it all week. I just nodd or say un-huh. I can't wait for her to come back, being a listening ear to him is another job in itself.

The killer part is, it's not just that discussion-the $10 potluck, but he jumps from one discussion to another. Like, he will talk about the potluck, and then talk about my baby brother all in one statement. Who does that? How is the listener suppose to know u switched topics?....Yap yap yap.

2nd-close friend calls. She tells me she needs a favor, so I tell her sure-I'll do it. I give her the "Q" time to get off the phone cuzz I'm tired sigh, "well...." meaning, "well...I'm gonna go cuzz I am tired girl". Everytime I sighed, she ignored it and kept talking-I couldn't even get the, "well" out good enough. Her topic of discussion?....A man. I am thrilled she is seeing one and gett'n some on the regular, but do I have to hear every detail u go over with me week after week. Yes I do, cuzz I'm her friend. So I listen, I know exactly what she's gonna say cuzz she's been say'n it for a week now, and will continue to say it until she does something new with him. I wish they spend more time together just so I can have a change of story at least 3 times a week.

It's getting so bad that u can hear my fake laughs over the phone, why-cuzz it's not funny anymore, last week it was. I love her though, so I tolerate it and listen as good friends do. Human Beings, we're funny creatures-so predictable, so repetitive. I don't think I can be without my family or friends, so I do my part until I can't anymore.

Random thought 2

Hiding:

We're all human right? I mean we all have the same things, two arms, hands, legs, mouth, feet-and so on. Why do we spend so much time trying to be different from what we are. A face is a face, and yet we dress it up with make-up or put chemicals on it to make it darker, lighter, our lips fuller, or stretch it to hide wrinkles that are a natural process to the human face. A human body is what it is-a body that houses the beautiful energetic souls. Why must we pull, tuck, cut, and mutilate natural beauty?

What's wrong with the way natural human beauty reflects through out its course of life? Why do we hide it? Why shame it with abuse and hate then call it improvements or say "I feel better about myself". How can one feel better about distorting natural beauty?

There was a time when all we humans did was be human. There was natural beauty and acceptance-no make-up, no plastic, no chemicals to mix, no stress, no hiding-just people being who they were-people, society calls it primitive-I call it "keep'n it real"

Random Thoughts 1

I'm 29 years old, and I feel that I'm thinking way too much about.....about......any and everything. I mean who showers and thinks about the "kind" of shampoo ur putting into ur hair and if another person the same age in a "3rd world country" would few its significance the same as u do. I don't even think that they would care, their priorites are extremely different from mine. Mindless little things like this, enter into my mind. I don't even know how to stop it, who wants to think like this all day long. Today, the thought of the day was....how come society is so stessed out over simple little things. It was lunch time, and my co-workers and I could not make up our minds on where to eat. My job is surrounded by a dozen fast food chains and a mall. Why we could not possibly pick a place still puzzles me. To tell u the truth, I rather use my lunch break to sleep in my car....that's just what I did, I'm lazy like that. My co- workers ended up eating at the vending machine. Gotta have those chips after all. I feel, if ur gonna stress-take a nap, or if u can't at least stress over something that is worth it.....well I guess in my co-workers minds not knowing where to eat is worth worrying about vs a family trying to figure out if they will be able to eat for the week-hey gotta love that Maslow's theory-um McDonald's or Jack in the Box? I don't know, this is a hard one. I guess it's in the same boat as trying to pick the right shampoo for ur hair. Does it really matter? Shampoo is shampoo, if ur hair falls out get a weave, if not start a trend with really short uneven hair. Just the thought of any bad result stresses u out, me out, everybody. Then who is everybody? Does it matter, and does everybody really care. So I arrive at the begining again, as I always do in a simple question that can be answered an infinite number of ways, and taken as so in an infinite number of ways: who showers and thinks about the "kind" of shampoo ur putting into ur hair and if another person the same age in a "3rd world country" would few its significance the same as u do.